Roll On: Cikgu Afifah, LOL (part 6)

Sep 29, 2016

So, i got over those holiday feels and was all over finishing the moduls and the sillibus. We are so delayed for sejarah but i don't want to over pushing it. It felt utterly wrong since the kids wouldn't be reading it much and a brief introduction from the teachers would help so much. Been there, done that!

I want to share some short encounters that made me happy somehow.

1. The raver (idc if i spell wrong. It was this weird dance moves trending these days)

This one student saw me made weird hand gestures (i was playing around with the otherss) and say "cikgu mcm raver". That was so insulting it was making me laughing for how they don't know me. I say that i am not. Then the other student thought i was something a hipster. So naturally i asked for the difference.

"Raver tu macam nari nari. Hipster tu mcm style la pakai smart smart"

No, hispters are hippies.

2. Peniru (like those nicknames in Need For Speed, Liar 1)

Of course the kids will copy their homework. I was being all jovial bout it and was highlighting it was wrong. Correcting some sentence contruct. I was like,

"Nak tiru pon tirula jawapan yang betol!"

Disclaimer: This class was the weak ones so I was aiming that they at least do it. I am not promoting cheats.

3. One who were more annoying.


There are this two boys with wits that was cute and downright annoying. But they were not close friend. They like to chat with their good friend whom of course sitting in the chair beside them each. I switch their seats that both of them sit together. They don't chat much, HOORAY. But they start to play around and idling and started this game whom was more annoying. They are adorable.

4. Karbon monoksida.

We were reading about jerebu and how the smokes from vehicles are dangerous due to carbon monoxide. I start shares bout how the westerners killing themselves by choking on this gas. Then, i tought "eh, kenapa cikgu ajar cara bunuh diri ni". They, well, of course laugh it out and excited though on how to do it. I told them bout the garage version and settling by saying that "kat malaysia tak pakai garaj so tak boleh nak buat".




My weakness is that i felt sorry when they do questionable things. They just don't understand.

Perasan righteous kejap

Roll On: Cikgu Afifah, LOL (part 5)

Sep 19, 2016

I felt utterly lack of energy. Like negative. My head hurts a little and i am so hungry but i don't know why.

I have one more class. The students were bearable but I am so not in the mood for teaching even though we are quite left behind. Apparently there is this modul we need to finish that would took my class time. We don't even finish our silibus yet! It was asked so sudden like whyyyyyy.


I feel bad for the teachers needing to do this last minute work. There are more of these apparently. There should be more teachers to accomodate all this work. All this plans were really good but it is nonsense to be adding work but not the people to do it.

I should really think what to do with the kids in my next class.

This is the first day after one week holiday and there are a lot of student didn't finish their homework or simply doing it quite badly.

I need to figure out how to help them!



p/s: i start doing this supernatural edits and put it in my Instagram.
I am sitting alone in the hallway because everyone are doing this scoring for koko programmes with students and, well, I don't know what to do because i'm just a substitute teacher. Apparently they've locked the teacher's room so I can't go in and marked the books. So yeah, I am sitting in the hallway. That felt quite depressing huh.

I made peace with my work now. It have been really entertaining and quite satisfying. I've bonded well with the teachers.

*intermission*

During my idle and hopeless waiting, few of the teachers come and thus suffer the same thing. I stopped typing and chat with them. We actually sit by the drain (it's cleaned in case you were wondering) and joke around that we are this locked-out-of-the-teacher's-room club. I am the president-lah. Quite a big turn of event huh? I have few good laugh so yeah, my teacher life experience has been wonderful!

To make it even better, Bastille just released their new album. My lecturer even give me the whole copy of the album. HE IS FREAKING AWESOME.

All my siblings were home except for Aiman and we were enjoying Stranger Things together very much.

Life is good.

Eheh. I always share my downfall so this is clearly felt quite odd. A good kind of odd.

Roll On: Cikgu Afifah, LOL (Part 3)

Aug 25, 2016

I am so out of it that I missed a class today. I thought today was Wednesday and barely have 10 minutes with the students.

Ok. Deep breaths. Lot of istighfar.

So help me please. I always have this soft spot for guys with cheeky attitude, vibrant spirit and simply a drop of sunshine. Yeah. I have crush on my students.

I am officially a pedophile.

Ok. Not really, not like crush crush, more like this at awe feelings. Like come on, why don't my coursemates were like this? Well, actually, there is one, this particular one. The one that got away.

It's my senior. He even have this modesty that made him just perfect (i'm exaggerating much here). You can say that during my years in UKM, he was the only one fits my type. The best thing is I've only realize I have a type when I am writing this.

Blogging has help me so much to understand myself. Like right now how much a pedophile i am.

I AM NOT A PEDOPHILE.

Get a hold on yourself Afifah.

HE IS JUST A KID! HE HAVE CRUSH ON HIS PEERS! LIKE WHAT I SHOULD DO??

I wonder what my crush/senior is doing now. I think he has got his pharmacy license already.

We have finished the monthly examination and none of my students got A. The final are closing in and I would held much of the revisions and exercise thingy and was like, are they actually depends on me on their final exam?

Well of course!

That my dear is RESPONSIBILTY.



#stupidcrush
#stupidcrush
#stupidcrush

Poem: Secret Crush

Aug 23, 2016

You are an adoration,
Brightly; vividly,
A constant liveliness.

I am, still am, not knowing if I would stop,
Has guiltily enthralled, bit of spellbound,
With your pure soul but a mess of mischief,
With your glorious smile yet a wall up roguery,

You're not playing by the rules,
Oh so ever a blatant fool,
Am I ever will cease this drool.


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p/s: my poems were all about crush and stuff. i am a boring kind of person.

Roll On: Cikgu Afifah, LOL (Part 2)

Aug 16, 2016

I saw a dead cat this morning.

Yesterday, i was so worn out i literally drop dead by 8.30pm and only wakes up at 3am.

I haven't been blogwalking for a very long time.

I still have this nagging feeling about teaching when the salary was only RM600.

Well, maybe it keeps bothering me because i am constantly out of my comfort zone. This one particularly is all over out of my zone.

I don't have any peers.
I am teaching which is obviously not pharmacy.
I am teaching and that itself is a very new thing.
I keep on moving from class to class that when I got some free time I try to get on the study materials. Then, I also need to check the student work so I would understand them better. So i become this quiet new substitute teacher that always kept to herself.
The students were quite left behind and when I rechecked the student plan stuff it turns out I have to teach them everything before then end of September which is in other words before I finished.

I worries too much isn'it?

Having said all of these, I realized that I have this satisfaction that somehow I can help to mold the future. Quite exaggerating but yeah. I mean I can relate and explain all sort of life lesson since I am teaching Sejarah and Bahasa Melayu. At that point I understand why teaching is such a noble job and why a lot of people wants to do it. Teachers got first hand influence to teenages, the futures. They have understood what the world has to offer and it is their chance to prepare the students better.

However, as I say, CHANCE. Teachers have been blessed with this chances.

I am still all clueless at all places. Buku rancangan pelajaran things helps me to teach accordingly but since they were left behind I have to be faster. Sadly, the student might have some problems since they never really been doing stuff before. So, there's that and yeahh.

I am still a mess. I just need to whine and find my inner peace. This job offers a lot to me. I have the chance to experience handling teenagers as well as to makes friends with adults. It gets me to involve and mingle with the society better. I learned to become more self dicipline. During my industrial training we didn't get to do much so this would help me better to adapt myself in work ethics. Most importantly I can still cooked lunch and recite the quran with my sisters. It just so satisfying to still have those chances.

In the meantime, I should also figure out doing part time job in a community pharmacy as well. There were no vacancy available so I might just have to ask them and explain my situation.

But for now, I am teaching how to make a karangan fakta and i asked the students to prepare beforehand. Guess what, it will be about safe medicine use.

I am awesome.