Feeling Off

My PMS includes being in kind of a low mood. I always thought that I'm just more tired. Once I started dating my husband, having a space I can just be whatever, I realize that I was being more than just tired. I got more sensitive, more overthinking but then more hopeless too as at that same time , I just don't want to do anything. I'm just not on my best game. 

When you're working in sales, that just a really tiring state to be. You just don't want to do anything but then you can't be this way when entertaining a customer. I learned from Chatgpt that these switching, it also physically tiring to your body. I was confused why I just crashes after work at times and turns out this plays a role too. This will happen around a week. Then my period came.

I'll be looking more positively at life but this time, I am actually worn out tired. The bleeding and the cramps will take more toll on my body. Not to mention as I am actually just in a constant mode of overthinking mess, I'll try to compensate whatever I was "not" during my PMS. 

I was thinking that OCP might helps, they have these low dose ones meant to be more stable for you body, but then I always forgets them. Maybe I should try again as my periods has been funny too. It might not work. I'm just an avid overthinker in general. Just in different mode at times.

Maybe I am getting old. I remember how refreshing and high spirited I was in my twenties. Going to work with excitement and energy. But now, I woke up feeling tired. I need more deep sleep really. I slept quite well the past two nights but I had the weirdest dream. I can't remember them now except how weird it was.

How can I went for exercise if I don't have the energy to do so or was it really in my mind only? 

Oh ya, I need to reason out on days that I don't write. 

On 6th - because I have a full day shift

On 7th - it was my off day and we spent the entire morning outside and then do movies/chores in the evening. I just don't feel like pulling put my keyboard to write afterwards since I want to sleep early.

On 8th - I have a noon shift and I should write before going to work. In between Netflix and sleepiness and cooking lunch, I thought I have the time but I misjudged. I was thinking to do a quick writing during break at work but I went into work with multiple issues to be settled right on that time so with all that mess, I just want to chill during my break.