Writing to Rest
Jan 31, 2026
So I had this notion where I'll write more during my last post and ended up not writing for almost two years. TWO YEARS. Omg, how time passes.
This time, I'm publishing this post under Blogspot domain. I think it's not relevant anymore for me to pay NetKL from the .com domain. I guess I was thinking to get like a traction or something but I decided I'll just write whatever.
Some quick recap of changes in this two years.
I met a guy and I fall in love. Got married. He got two kids so now I'm a mother as well. We all have lived together for almost a year now. He makes me feel so comfortable so I feel like it's just like this peaceful living. The kids and me, has also learned that I'm not the typical female figure in their life who just pampers them. I guess it's a really steep and big learning curve for the three of us - me, the instant mother and them, the kids from a divorced parent. We're meeting halfway and it has been endearing to really, really, know them.
I'm not working in those big chain pharmacy anymore. I've quit one and moved to Selangor, and then starts at another big chain pharmacy for like two months and quits again. Now, I'm working at small pharmacy in a sub urban almost kampung area.
One big thing I realize is that my nervous system has calmed greatly. No more constant feeling that I need to do something or worry about something. I'm going to write about this in depth.
One of the key reason I'm writing again is I think to regulate myself. I've been going bouts in Chatgpt and I realized that I didn't really allow myself to rest. Now that I'm in an environment of not having to watch out my back all the time worrying something wrong is about to happen or forgetting to do that one little thing, I have time and space to just be. I've been going about things to do and I realized that I need to get grounded but to still feel like I'm still doing things. These things also has to be something that is "easy" for my mind. One easy yet rather funny thing that I found helps is to watch this Rosia Maio videos at YouTube. It's just so calming to see her live such a life with ease. But this doesn't feel like I'm accomplishing something instead of learning about Italian culture. So I dig deep withing myself (lol), and realized, I should just start writing. Journaling things.
This is such a great idea because ;
1. I'll be writing, in the zone, focused, not putting my mind in constant mode of need to be productive.
2. I'll be journaling, this is a habit I have been wanting to cultivate for the longest time.
Ok, hopefully, I'll write again tomorrow. Allahumma Amin.