Showing posts with label MCO. Show all posts
Showing posts with label MCO. Show all posts

Things I Want to Change About Myself?

Jan 31, 2021

I literally just thought about this. It was the usual realization of things "I should have done" that I only got the time to really ponder deeply about it now that PKP has started again and I have all the time to myself. 




Talking about PKP, what's with the 5K cases? The daily deaths too. This feel so out of hand. Like for real, I'm going to actually continue writing my Covid-19 Diary series cause it seems like we are going to be here for a while.


Anyway, back to the title, this isn't supposed to be a dark thing whatsoever. It was more like things that I have always been conscious about but not too much but still, doing something about it might be a good thing considering I'm two years left to go into my thirties. I might still not doing anything after this but I feel like writing and writing have always been my safe place.


Bodyweight


My body weight has been increasing since forever. I've never considered dieting or exercising because for the most part of my life I wasn't exactly fat thanks to my height and stature but now it seems like those can't help me anymore. My cheeks are literally falling out of my hijab lol. Do I hate it? Not exactly. My only problem is that I can't really rock outfits that I think look so cool but won't exactly work if I'm not thin enough. 


It might hurt my chances of getting a guy but these outfits thing is my main issue now. Plus I'm getting older and having some more movements out of my daily life might help me not being a burden when I'm older. I hate being a burden. It makes me anxious.


Skin routine


My acne is acting up, and the mask is just making it worse. I decided to retake Accutane again. Even with the vaccine coming up, there is still a long time for us to spend being vigilant so yeah the mask might stay for a little longer. 


Then I also realized that I have a really bad habit at skincare. I mean I do them but for the most part of it, I still pick at my acne, and recently, I have been doing such a good job of not doing my skincare routine. Mostly because it got so discouraging how oily my skin gets afterward and nothing seems to work off my acne. It was taking so long to heal and the mask keeps on ruining the already slowly healing acne. I'm getting better at it though since I change some of the product and limit to three items only. 


Daily routine


I think I need to add a little something to my life. Make it more stable and fulfilling like those aesthetically pleasing "daily routine vlog". Since we are in the Covid-19 season, my current life includes work, fyp, animes, and tv shows. Although I have exactly no problem doing those things as I chilled after a day of work, my soul kinda craves something more. 


It wasn't about having a purpose in life because I have long settled with living a carefree and chill day to day life but I guess a little something more would help me not getting bored easily. I've been feeling good lately since I started my new work so I guess I just wanted to use this energy more.





That was it. It was rather a short list now, doesn't it? Now I'm not sure what's left to say anymore. Although there is one important change I need to do that is simply hurting my ego yet I just have to do it. 


Have you guys ever heard how bitchy Digi is when their users want to change telco? I have experienced it first hand and it was so obnoxious that I vowed not to use them ever again. 


Guess what telco has the most speed in my new place?







p/s - today is supposed to be a chill Sunday but why is it so hot!


Covid-19 Diary (Part 4) feat. Stuffs I've Bought During MCO

Apr 19, 2020

(update - I put the link of where I bought everything, just click at the tittle)

MCO got extended, yet again. #LOL

I read somewhere that one of the ways to get you more excited and simply feels a little livelier to go through day by day (don't ask how I got to read that article) is by having something to look for. Focus on that thing upon waking up. It gets you going. One of the example, that I feel more achievable for me, is to be excited about something posted to you. Probably something you shopped online. 





I remember feeling how expensive and so not eco-friendly the suggestion is but guess who just scroll a Carousell seller for measuring spoons and "other stuff" that she can also post together from the same seller so that we can have more purposeful postage and now owns a mini flask, salt and pepper shaker plus cute plastic wraps. 

In my defense, all those cost me only RM17. Excluding postage. 

Now, why not I share all of the stuff I have bought online due to MCO.

18/3/2020 - Nutox Renewing Treatment Lotion and thermal flask




I was planning for a while to buy these two and just didn't get the chance as I was so keen that I got a good deal. That means, when I found it, I keep on thinking I can get a better deal "somewhere" else. Nutox and good thermal are expensive y'all. I just had to buy it online since MCO has started and also because I thought Watson's and Guardian's weren't operating during MCO. However, buying online is a bit cheaper so yay although it doesn't help my moral conscience of the environmental pollution it might cause due to posting it. I was also about done not finding any flask I liked so I just bought something decent online. It was indeed exciting to get both because I have wanted it for a while.

Still doesn't know that both Watson's and Guardian's were operating per usual, I got stressed with acnes that keeps on coming due to wearing a mask all day long. I was debating on buying it online because it is a mere acne patch which I shouldn't have to buy it online. I'm not a hazard to the earth for god's sake! But the acne bugs me and I comforted myself by buying Cosrx's instead of the usual Oxy's patch that I used. I love Cosrx's acne patch but I can only get it online so I change to Oxy's. Funny story, the patch got missing and once I knew Watson's and Guardian's are still operating, I just get the usual Oxy's one. I am still heartbroken that the patch simply went missing to this day.


27/3/2020 - Some drawing supplies for my sister and ribbons


My sister got bored at home and asked me to buy her some watercolor and brushes. Got her the usual Buncho ones and a set of brushes. Apparently, she can actually draw well. I bought some yellow and green ribbons for Eid decoration at the pharmacy which I have put it away since it seems like we might not get to return home for Eid. So now I have a stash of ribbons lying around somewhere in my room. 



We wore whitecoat in the pharmacy and mine was this unisex one which means it has no cutting. Just a straight boring piece of oversized whitecoat. I was thinking about buying it but never really did buys it until I made this timelapse video of me doing some work at the pharmacy which I didn't actually go over and edited it because my flappy white coat made me look even fatter so yeah I guess it was time. For my whitecoat wearer ladies out there, don't buy it from Kamal Bookstores, get it from Smart Uniform. Smart Uniform is also available in Lazada,


29/3/2020 - Rotating make-up organizer that has been in my cart for months





I'm not even exaggerating. It has been in my cart for months and I just thought I didn't really need it but it turns out to be the best buy ever. I can adjust the height so it could fit lots of stuff, even if I bought new stuff. It rotates so I can simply take something, applies it, put it back and then rotate towards other stuff that I needed instead of putting stuff everywhere and thinking I will come back later to tidy it up. It is the ultimate lifehack for lazy me!



I got this urge to do some transformation in my room. I thought minimal and open storage would be good since I need space for stuff or else I'll end up throwing stuff everywhere. I bought this exact same thing when I stayed in the studio apartment at the hospital because it was that good but since I have put that away at my home, I bought a new one. The due date for it to arrive is on 11th April but that was a week ago and I still haven't received it. The seller wasn't helpful at all and PosLaju only received written complaints during MCO so now I need to just wait until they reply to me. I might just try to get a refund.


2/4/2020 - Small fluffy carpet




I totally underestimate the size so it was way smaller than I thought it was. Yes, I do read the dimensions written but I just have the most stupid sense of length ever. It was cheap though and it turns out kinda good sitting there. Super fluffy too!


4/4/2020- Schwarzkopf Seborin Hair Tonic. 


I'm too lazy to put a picture. It's a tonic for hair-fall. Someone on Twitter claims it works wonder but I keep on forgetting to put it on. It says that I need to massage it for two minutes but I have never really got into massaging let alone for 2 minutes but I tried my best. It was surprisingly cheap, only RM27 for 300ml.  It smells medicated-ish though but faintly. It also leaves your hair slightly stiff but I wore tudung so I don't really care. My hair-fall is rather controlled by now and I wore this solely to help hair growth especially those flyaways so that it will simply grow long enough for me to tie it back.


7/4/2020 - Google Pixel 2
My Redmi Note 5A cracked, yet again, and it was so frustrating. If I fix that, it will mark a total of RM400++ on fixing phone crack which is how much the phone costs in the market right now. I thought of buying a new phone and wanted something smaller than 5-inch and it seems like my Xiaomi only makes large phones and I will never bring myself to buy an iPhone so, through deep research, I found Pixel 2. But it was a used set since they didn't make it anymore but knowing Pixel 2 is a good phone and the deal was so good, I just had to buy it. It was amazing. Their OS was a bit different though but I just use Google Assistant when I got confused.


Don't let me start on stuff that I bought offline.

p/s: I started to share my poems back on Instagram (@afifahwrites), do visit!







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